I act
like
we have forever
my words, take your ears for granted
each time I play a card, I look into the mirror
and say
"no good"
but this, only works, in solitaire.
because
when we play together...
...when I play with you
you say "every one is good, every one is beautiful, every one is worth it"
and I feel
something
other
than
loneliness
because when you say "every one is good, every one is beautiful, every one is worth it"
you are telling me
I am good, I am beautiful, I am worth it
and this
little brick
breaks through the mirror
in my
solitaire
and there is no
looking back
at me
badly
no interrogation
only the divine line, I cross
when we
play cards
I let you win
because
being with you
is winning
when when I'm with you
I am winning
Oh God,
I am a silhouette, mixed with many waters
my banks are dry
and yet I chat with wild onions
and the grilling of delectable sin
I wade through the answers
to come up
like trout into the fisher's boat
but I am holding
you
inside of me
Oh Beloved
your songs are my knees in solicitation
and my weeds
keep growing, though you are pouring down The Friend
and my weakness
speaks underwater
and all that silver lining my eyes
is still a stitch of hell
Beloved
we channel through each other
and this time,
You are God
why have I forgotten, all the gifts I held?
and underneath these blankets,
are my dreams?!
just poems powered by my greed?
incessant demands for your return?
chasms with switchboard co-operators?
I sugar coat You
just to strip you down
and then I let you give me
everything
when I complain
there are ribboned birds planning winter
and swans necking
in the audience
of my
flaws
I love you
stretching all your crosshairs
to meet me
in my
civil
war
I love you
breaking bread
over my
queen, king, ace
I love you
unloading the car of clowns
on my
root lock
You are my God
and I only
act
like You Are
when my microphone
is unplugged
I act
like we have forever
but
each dream
wakes from itself
wakes me
from you
and I wrestle
with
giving up
sleep
I Love You
Your Beloved
