Love Letter 359 The Truth Is Enough to Get My Attention

I waited for you, casting nets on the ocean floor
into the deep, I reached
into the wading pond of death, the cornerstone of life, I held my hand into the strong wild belly
unable to see beyond my intent, beyond my engagement with my momentary truth, my part of the telling of a story that has so many sides, voices, faces and realities
I waited for you as if you were a hand on the clock making its rounds.
I waited for you as though you were an entertainer about to perform.
I waited for you as if you were one of many fish confused and bewildered by my hidden trappings.
I waited for you, until the pain grew great, and crying out, I fell under an enormous wave.  I played tricks with myself, writhing and chasing, dreaming and replacing.  Analyzing every piece I had cut away from your tapestry.
I cried out under the weight of what I'd woven
I cried out from under the sea
Your hand wrapped mine and we journeyed together.  Your words " Just say it.  Just say what is true for you without the charades."
Four words, an alchemy so challenging to embrace, " I am in pain" gushed forth from a dark fenced in place.
" I am in pain, " you said, " is a full sentence."
So I said it again, " I am in pain."
I am in pain, Beloved.  I am in pain.

Love Letter 358 Every Supper

Dear One

I sat at the empty table (and waited for You)

in front of the empty bowl (which you might fill)

my hands were empty

my heart, empty too

filled with longing,

I waited for

YOU

Beloved,

Oh,

On the Third Day YOU Rose Again

to Remind Me

YOU are the table

the bowl

my hands

and my heart

I Love You,

Your Beloved

Love Letter 357 There is Nothing to Adore but this

why god put you here for me to adore

is the mystery

i will not solve

with my lips in tandem with my shiny little mind

i must join

the mystery

at its core

where no else can go

but the mystery

then I will know

what no one knows

then I will know

how to celebrate the gift

without unwrapping

it

just like you,

I will KNOW God's Love

as if

IMPLICIT

in the gift

god gave me YOU to adore

so I would stop

asking

questions

I Love You,

Your Beloved