Love Letter 267 That Watch Your Wearing

I forgive you

but only 'cause you love me

I wear the white dress

but only 'cause you like it

jealousy

is like a hibiscus

it only grows in beautiful places

My Love

I want you to be happy

but not by leaving me

I want great things for you

but not greater than for me

You say things to me

that make me go numb

hostile enough to eat the sun

sometimes

I am packing everything I am

in my mind

and throwing

everything I think of you

in your face

but this phase passes

because the moon has allowed herself to grow dark

be covered up

by things we cannot see

and give herself again

when light allows

and I never hold her

phases

against her

I never blame

with my anger

her waning

yet I always watch her wax

with such ecstasy

that

I can barely finish this letter

I love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 266 This Act

I leave you

because it's the only thing to do

the only thing I've learned

to do

I press my bed against the wall

so I feel safer

the wall does not think me silly

so this is

the way

I've lived

all things in their place

of making sense

sometimes

and so

I

use

this

all the time

as my default

I have not followed you up to bed

because I know

there is warfare

around the corner

sometimes

so I

will avoid

it all

sleep tight

I will say

walking out

to my own ambivalence and anger

You hear me

in my footsteps

and the shutting door

is like a lid on a coffin

except, my love

that I have bowed down

in the ashes

of your throne/crown tore off me

and I have let you ride

a zillion times

on my white magnet horse

and I have given you up

so someone might know

you deeper

and wake your art

(more fully)

and my dear

I have practiced

looking long and hard

at my weakness

as you praised me

and hid

your very last thought

and my beloved,

from this threshold

of the door shutting

I can see

that God is not wearing

my

illusions

I can feel you put your head

on the pillow

in my heart

there are poems

about this act

but for now

I will let sleep take you

while I learn

I love you,

Your Beloved

Love Letter 265 Beyond the Sky

NIGHT

LIGHT

What thou sayest to me

is only thread

on the threadbare sky

I am grasping at fruit

cluttered in the sheer waist of your enjoyment

Capture me in that ring you dust --

examine like a root

caught in every angle of the truth

Let the world love us

it is safe here

where no one comes to tame us

We can be wild

in each epiphany

to stretch beyond

the place

where hate has held us

I am here

to enrich

your whole apparition

and that holy sky

which bends the needle backward

and will not stitch us

out of anything

but God

I Love You,

Your Beloved