Love Letter 212 Endless Talk

I was pregnant, once

with a dirty word

but I couldn't use it

I would go places just to hear it

coming from someone else.

I would push people to use it

then run

as if

they had done

something wrong

I used to be a virgin.

casting out frogs, and

casting off princes

I used to pride myself

on living without

and keeping myself solemn and sovereign.

I was so sentimental

I lost the meaning

of Love

I pressed my finger on the button

and erased

the whole grid

but YOU never blew up

I want to be pregnant

as much as I want to give birth

those dirty words

are useless camping out on the tongue

but how do I take that first step

from

virgin

to Beloved?

must I let "God"

out

of my mouth?

I Love You

Your Beloved