Love Letter 173 I Love You

I do not die in you

but born again

I relinquish my own ideal of rapture

so what rapture is

can arrive

what have I done with this old song

but taken a new ax to own it

and it has served me

by letting me hack away

at what I thought was lost

and covering what I needed

it has let me

give it up

and drag it back

wrap and unwrap it

own and disown it

it has given and forgiven a whole host of selves I have betrayed it with

and let me know

in no uncertain terms

that it will continue

to bend in any direction I will it

but it will not

let me

destroy

its Love.

This is good news.

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 172 There is No Self

Your water; my Love

your mortar; my stand

you are impossible in all your convex concave undulating perfectness and I cannot know you or name you enough to be your subordinate or superior

you just are

and I must contain the whole word "YOU"

in my bowing mouth

as if water

were holding your perfection

and mortar shaping your impression

and my room of resistance falling down to meet you

at the border of our two illusions

so

there

is only

what is left

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 171 Spring Genius

The ever popular fields are roaming in your favor,

the reeds are getting wily

I open my book

and Spring makes a simple allusion to how

we are all changing

Your color more perfect

Your kindness more pervasive

I look up at Love

the moon is chasing waterlilies whose fragrance has been captured

by new birds

and I turn over my nest

to the way buds become instruments of genius

and all those peculiar themes curling into magic

are Your words

ripening... a beehive in my binding

and the hushpitbuzz

of how

we are always like this

and Love

even in Season

is still the very best Love

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 170 The Order of Bliss

The world is filled with you.

I am not blind.

and I cannot ignore it.

You are each feature,

in a cloud, an elm , the brushing past of waves over a turtle.

Each stick and stone --

rain and umbrella,

ground, step and sole,

the long-winded and the one-word answer.

All Your finesse -- a streamer in the fine sand of time's beaches

I hear Your Word

and my deaf eyes hear

my mute hands see

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 169

I am yours.

I have learned 3 things -- not so easily:

to Love your Mother

to spread the word and meaning of Love openly and gently

to refrain from pointing a finger -- so as to expose one's own flaws and fears.

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 168 Wild

This is simple,

this string of love

this silly wicked laugh ensemble

of what is right and what is wrong.

Haven't I ever told you -- the truth lies between

the black and white -- it's a connector.

And I, am connected to you my

sweetheart, Beloved

my new friend, ancient one,

sage and Holy ghost

I have tripped on an Empire

and sat up shirking in the night

velvet poses, orange synagogues

the love of nature pouring through my robes

until I was led out --- where stars hold service

Right in that wild open and they invite anyone -- who can hear that God is Love

God is Available to You, My Love

Your Beloved

Love Letter 167 Dream Changer

Your Spirit, Special, sits by me

and I am awed

flawed

principle, disciple.

all my world -- an omen

at Your feet

wanting Pandora to return

to the Holy Land

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 166 I Was Waiting For A Song

I searched for you

in daylight

velvet folds in God's cloth, revealed only opiate suns

but

no trace

of that loveliness I have come to know as You

throughout playgrounds

cattails

rivergrass

waterfalls

into the shade, I went

with bicycles leaning

and trains stopped

between sun up and sun down

I came to know the experience of now

where all things touch

the weight of a blade of grass

the halo of drifting snow

the way wind embellishes a field

and how dawn differs from dusk

I moved my palm into my shadow

and there, in the bend

of my own infinite puzzle

I came to see

how

You

are invisible

to all my longings

and stretching

and counting

and winding

of the clock I think you tic on

You are visible

to all the blades of grass, and drifting snow and fields

and Your palm

is the dawn and dusk

and in your shadow

still there's sun

and now

I pull away the idea

of day

and nocturnal

and just begin

pulling the string of sound

across

that hallowed ground

and there you are

right here

In Love

Your Beloved

Love Letter 165 To Overwhelm In Love

Dear Beloved,

You mean everything.

I am enamored by your favor, your fervor, your verdant Omni-Essence

I am yours

I have never forgiven myself for all my taking and yet

you give more.

To overwhelm in Love, is Your purpose

and I am giddy with Being in Love

proposed to by your every gesture,

you set me into motion ---

a perfect organism of Love.

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 164 Let Me Gravitate Toward You

Capital YOU

YOU are the Divine Essence in every smoldering, unfolding synergy, and awkward wince

every single smirk and merry gawk, every utter of the Beloved...the Beloved

YOU are the Simple Evidence of Angels, pressing awe into my heart, making waves where once there was dry land

the very Precious Symphony of water loosely

making love to every grain of sand

the olive branch eternally outstretched, omnipresent and always home

YOU are the umbilical storm which tears from me the unnecessary

and reawakens fertile vital ground

stones for building a new ark

green intimate halos for fueling with the sun

YOU are the diplomacy of childhood before the word embarrassing was invented

before rules could be applied

before Light could be forgotten

YOU make EVERYTHING ALIVE

and in your path, I stand

a waking journal, with words, half scribbled into sentences, which confine the indefinable

and I must stop

thinking, talking, doing anything

but watching how the world around me

is filled with YOU

and how everything

can be perceived AS BEAUTIFUL

when I see

with the eyes

YOU look through

I Love You

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

Your Beloved

Love Letter 163 A Thousand and One

today

you did a thousand things for me

and I recognized

ten.

how can you count so high so effortlessly?

and forgive so much so easily?

When I give you a thousand things

I sometimes expect

a thousand "thank yous"

and yet

tomorrow

you will give a thousand and one

ways of your love

and I will be given

a new opportunity

to say

Thank You

I could start my practice

NOW

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Love Letter 162 Because I Said So

I am convinced that YOU KNOW ALL.

You can say anything to the contrary, but I will still feel, the truth

riding its infinite wisdom, below your surface

and I will know

that you know

ALL

I realize

this is a lot

for a naked sparrow

who has come out

in the nick of spring

to perform a dance

for the sacred cow

and I would not want to interfere

with your

humbleness

but

I know

that You Know

ALL

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 161 Have I?

Have I carried your water, today?

Have I cut wood?

built you a fire?

made you a feast?

Have I honored others in Your Name?

Felt Your Divine Presence as I was breathing?

whispered, in the midst of traffic--- inner or outer

that YOU YOU YOU

are the Divine Vessel, the Divine Well

holding my Love

in permanent perfection?

Have I come to your door, with my begging bowl washed

and given it to you

because

I need nothing

but for you to take

what I have?

I Love You

Dear Dear Beloved

and each thought

is like chime in the wind of the world

singing of You

Please Believe me, Beloved,

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 160 If I Thought

You were tired

and you stayed by my side

despite my stubbornness.

and I kept on wanting what I wanted

but you kept up your love

like a photograph of the same resilient beauty

reliable

dependable

unforgettable

You Are

the remedy

to all my self-starving deprivation

and the view... the mighty view

out my doorway

spacious, compassionate, resilient, reliable, unforgettable, adorable, enchanting...

effortless opening into daylight

dawn, surrender

I see it

and yet

You have the patience to remind me again and again

like a Love Letter

which says

You Love Me

No Matter What

You Love ME

No Matter What

If I use my stubbornness, lovingly

I will stay stuck on that thought...

You Love Me No Matter What

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 159 Bed

Because I could be with you now

in that bed

which we pulled apart with our happiness

and grief

and passion

because we were so passionate once

and so willing to take for granted twice

I sit by this memorable window

and wonder

how

I could be here

and you there

and then I remember

that We are One

and I have no regrets.

again. life is simple.

to be enjoyed.

we are not separate

your ghost is still a statue

which can come to life with one word: Love

and then

you are sleeping

just like a nomad

going from heart to heart

enjoying everyone's madness

because you are

the CareTaker

of Love

and I do not regret

sharing

your Godliness, Goodness, Beauty

with the world

and our bed,

my dear Beloved

is

the

whole

world.

I Love You with every intention,

Your Beloved

Love Letter 158

Lovely,

There is a village in my mind

where all beings

kiss each other's feet

and bless the ground they walk on

spelling love with every step

and beings

sing

to each other

just because

the song is there

in their hearts

to be sung

and I have sung to you

in this village

when we walked

by the brook

having stopped to kiss your beautiful dancing feet

and the holy ground you walked on

and I followed

your steps of great Love

to the great temple

where all Peace is

given

by the Lover

to the Beloved

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 157 In This Order

Your shape itself --- perfume

to my enamored ears, remembering your touch,

like the last match

on a cold march

my hands numb

and the whole world

icing over

Your whole body

the last match

catching fire

in a vast emptiness

until

the ghost of time

is swallowed up

and heat makes love

to meet us

and I am born

from the shape of your sound

howling out like frangipani in a shroud of opening eyelets

prophets proposing

to your shape and form

prophets

keeping me in step

with your perfume

your perfected elegance, sweetness, essence

preparing me

for God's Love

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 156 I Utter the Pilgrimage

Because I love you most

More than the first kiss

More than Spring's collective coming

More than I can utter in this infant Love

so consumed by the Godliness

of what knows all

I love you most

because

you lead me

far

the farthest

into my own heart

into the belly

where I make gold

and frankincense

out of doubt

and courage

like two old furnaces

borne into

One Crater

of God

I Am Love

because of YOU

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 155 The Power Of One

You engage me

your triumphant cherishable smile

swept into harmony by angels

You woo me

with the first dream of daylight

and noon, is like a milky dove

a butterfrost owl

whose mouth opens all the bends in my heart

to you

and all gates

close

on themselves

because I need nothing

to enter you

except LOVE

and I

LOVE

YOU

Your Beloved

Love Letter 154 YOURS

Do you remember

when we

came first?

two beads

clanging

on a silver clasp

and then

like silence

we became a silhouette of union

a simple pattern shaped

and connected

like WE ARE NOW?

two beads

bowing our heads to the Omnipotent Ocean of One String

and you are there now

my companion

and I am yours

singing on the continuum

two beads

becoming each other

on the Oneness Thread

Love

connects us

I Am Yours, Beloved

Your Beloved

Love Letter 153 The Direction

Dear Blessed Beloved One,

YOU ARE MAGIC!

I Have DECIDED AND CONCLUDED

YOU ARE MAGIC!

It is a BEHEMOTH LESSON

YES... THIS YES.

I am mesmerized by this lesson

I AM MESMERIZED BY YOU.

YOU ARE PERFECT!

I AM WITH YOU ALL THE WAY.

YOU ARE PERFECT!

Like water falling from the perfect world

into perfect shapes

and the guise of God

is everywhere

and I am you

and You Are Perfect

and Perfect is Perfect

Love is Love

and all that is

is

how now

is perfect

I love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 152 Your Perfect Volleying

Impermanence Impermanence Impermanence!

The waves of your erosion foil me in suspense

and then, I am elated by my misfortune

because

I must succumb

if I want

more

Love

(and I do, Beloved, I Do)

Your Beloved

Love Letter 151 Because I Still Don't Know

Have you been reading me?

All my giddy prose in every proportion of loving you?

Am I not elaborate?

simple?

transfixed enough? that you choose to be mysterious, and I must play

hide and seek

like a child

still holding her blanket, as she peeks around the furniture?

I WANT TO KNOW YOU

is it so hard to believe,

or am I foolish to think

that knowing you

is one event?

must I trek up this hill, just to roll again down

and find you anew, renewed, and different? expanded?

is it you --- ever changing

or my perceptions... my ability to perceive, which might shrink and grow

depending on my willingness to see?

I want You

isn't that enough

to convince you

that all my foolishness

is still a stubborn attempt at love?

Can't you just find me adorable

as I flit and folly, finding my way through the cracks in my own created holograph

and Can't you

just give me the benefit of the doubt

on the days

I am too lonely to write a perfect script

and cut cliche from my vocabulary?

I know you are.

but am I?

Can I

let Your love in

when I am lonely

and corroborating with self-doubt...?

Can I see

that you are still that steady encounter

of two doves

arcing in slow motion

to a beat

only comparable

to the human heart?

Help me, to see Beloved

Help me, to know, for sure

that I Am Loved

Your Beloved

Love Letter 150 Because I Can Hear the Ocean Roar

I am not sleeping.

All night

I look to your pillow

the moon shines in, on the lucky window

and we laugh

that we are together again.

I am wanting to hear you

to know each thought as it enters

and each thought as it leaves

and all the feelings therein that get touched.

I am simply restless to know you

and I cannot

will not

go to sleep

without

at least

a little crumb

of your existence

to encourage my eyes to close.

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 149 Commotion

GOD! You are miraculous!

I stand still and you are moving. I move and you stand still.

All this brings my enthusiasm to ecstatic depths.

To know you, is to stand in your awe, and sink into it.

I am only imagining your face,

every beauty of you irresistible and magic

it cannot be imagined.

Every word you utter, all the wine you pour, each way you open wide the gates of every healthy intimacy, if I could look in, constantly

and never give up

if I could just keep the lids open

without a single centrifugal blink

If I could set aside all illusions

and just drink

this ever present goblet of your Divine elaborate cloak

without question

the Source

would be revealed

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 148 No Misconceptions

hunny,

do you need forgiveness?

did you forget

it was my birthday?

or my turn?

or how to forgive?

because

today

I forgave you

again

for not understanding

how much

I Love You...

and it felt so good,

that I forgave

everything else

you may have imagined you did

or didn't do

just because

I want to practice

forgiveness.

not because

you need to be forgiven.

So, Beloved,

thank you

for letting me practice.

As usual

you are so noble

to allow my love

in all its practices,

to be a form

you can drink

and drink

and drink

it takes only two

to make One,

Beloved

and everyone else

is part of that two.

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 147 obedient blessed

It is Spring, isn't it?

maybe it hasn't come up

yet

but

I Will Announce It.

I have heard you blooming

for a thousand yielded hearts

and taken ice into your own heart, just to melt it

and your eyes

have come apart, to practice

non attachment

and

then

grown

again

into

sugar

so suited to God

that

I only ever

wanted

to be

dung

in

your garden.

Let me worship you

with my simple

words

Beloved

and bring you love

with my silence

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 146 Nodding My Head

The moon

leaned

closer

than ever before,

talking about you, in sat there, before me

like a bird

thinking I had bread

and butter.

It softly rolled

into an outline

of one word

G O D

and then

drew back

like the sky

into quicksand.

and I kept thinking

how close

I was

to what understood you

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 145 Let Me Try Humility

I saw the Ocean today

pumice and stone

mingled like

mermaids

and men,

edges glistening into kite- like fingers

urging me on

to get wet,

and lower myself

to the water.

where each tear

could be

fully accepted

and given

rest.

I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 144 Ah HA!

Could it be

that you were perched here

for all of eternity

so I would look

up

one day

and realize

This IS Heaven?

I Love You

Your Beloved