Love Letter 53 Together as Always

Beloved



We are here, aren't we?

Together as fools, planning our wedding, always infinite?

My soul is erupting with true Joy. True morsels of priceless light as you move through me. Your Presence, like liquid evidence, that makes this body soar, heart lifted, opened, all the hinges lifted away, the inner being cleared for reverence.

I am in this moment with you, a single arrow piercing the hollow bow with its vigilance.

My heart is aching for you now, bowing to you in every little evening prayer. All the doorsteps awash with your patterns of appearing, all the homeless hand in hand with the One who brings them freedom.

Let me bend to you. Let me humble myself, at the bliss of your love, the fountain of your depth, the crucial and connecting arrow of your fate for me.

Whatever I can do

let it be in love.

out of love

adoring love

for you.

Your nectar, tangible like the moon.

So Present... So Singular

and yet

so much bigger

than my hollow gratefulness.

Together we enter

the infinite

which is within us.

And your touch, today, on my garment

is my reminder

to bow

to you.



I love you dearly

Your Beloved

Love Letter 52 Flourish

Can this be a new day?
A new start?
the building of a nest?
the cleaning of the clocks
erasing expectations?
Can we put it all down
for now
and just
Rest In EACH OTHER?
Can we attest
to the Paradise within Us?
Right Now?
How did we get this good at forgetting
the other IS GOD?
Let's check the foundation
steady each rock
make a promise
to Believe Again in Good
in the God and Goddess in Us
to spend our time in Harmony With Love
to Love
as if
Love depended on us
for a place
to plant the
Garden
of
God

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 51 Your Love Gathers Me Up

Have you ever felt like your love, beauty, kindness, depth is going to waste?
That all you have to give has been looked over, lost,
that the light you are
goes unnoticed, unseen
that you are a lover without a beloved... a beloved without a lover?
Have you ever wondered, why or where
how to change it, make it come true,
receive the power and love your mirror?
Do you wish I would just show up?!
and say "there you are!... Here I am!"
"I love what you have to give! Your gifts are perfect for this world!
I'm sorry it took me so long. Forgive my absence, neglect, ignorance."
Do you wish I would just admit, that you are what I've searched for my entire life, that the whole universe lives in your love
and that through loving you
I love the whole world... the whole world is loved?
How could I make you be so patient?!
All your goodness, shining like a crystal genesis along the shore.
Yes, I have been looking
my whole life
for something so potent and loving,
and yet
it has taken me all this time
to learn to bow.

Please forgive my tardiness.
My callousness, nervous, inability to navigate toward true love
Please forgive
all that I've taken for granted
my busy eyes, my bulky heart.
Please know
that there was nothing you were doing wrong
that your endurance and perseverance to Love
was the beacon
that your constant prayer for Love
and your constant example of Love
is what drew me
near
even when I could only take one small step
even when I was out of breath
my heart was still leading me
cowardly and courageous
to your door

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 50 Shining Arrow

BE

LOVED,



You are the peril and the pedestal

wrapped in a perfect all sustaining bow of eternal inspiration

where I stare rapidly at the angel's who congratulate me

for knowing you

You are the snapdragon and the lily

the Birth of Venus and the Venus Flytrap

all your synergy

to bridge duality

and take me further

into myself

BEYOND



BE

LOVED



a pocket of internal compasses

the miracle tree

You and the Unicorn



Into the Garden, I rush

every time I think of you,

hear your name,

breathe an impulse



there, like a flame whistling to the water

you twist

in an alchemy

of silent shuddering spectral

where I am

smitten

again and again

by an immortal paradigm

of Love



I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 49 Merkabah

Silence

in the middle of Meditation

Oh, God, have I told you how precious your every cell is?

Your perfect sensuous form, reasoning, empathy.

Your floating eternal web of God, Mercy, Love

that you ascend and take root

that you turn me on, like an elegant Merkabah

opening the wand of illumination

stirring my still pond, into wings of natural Niagaras

your world within a world

the celestial creation of Gods within Gods

and the Yantra like a temple spinning in your eye

where baths of mantras, and sand mandalas

weave together

Eden

and I am yours

I love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 48 in your Ocean

I wonder sometimes, if you have enough room
to let in
Light.
to let
me in.
to let new and good things happen
I wonder if you recognize me
in all beings
in yourself
in our love
in all love
I wonder if you
place me on the mantle
and turn
busy
into other things, away from breath
peace, love
I wonder
if this harp I play
can be heard today
while you are tending to your lists
and wishes
and shoulds
I wonder
if you have taken time
to know yourself
today
as Love
and seen that Love resonate all around you
if you have given to yourself
and been receptive to your own gifts and giving
I wonder
if the pebble I drop
in your ocean
sends
enough ripples
to reach you
truly
deeply
where
we are
ONE

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 47 God's Guise in You...Happy Birthday

I am learning, still, of new love
fallen snow still falling
and the eyes that cling to what shape it takes, and doesn't.
the tree stands
the candles glow
a million miles of lamplight
and still
I am frozen
by God's guise in You

You are complete.
There is nothing I am lacking.
all the spools of thread
and the eggnog
I have forgotten not one of your hundred scents
or your strengths
or you magic visage.
I am here, kneeling
where a fire burns
emptying itself of control
and availing
only you.

What water is this, that stretches our dust into magnets,
where God rests
and we rise
and all of the madness
is precise conjugation
of Love?

which principle rests on this?
which oracle names the seventh list?

All that comes has a tune
and its rhythm is brittle and booming
like frankincense and stone
shelter, and travel, and the unwrapping of the ancient only gift
always present in the room, at the inn, beyond the mythological

All day, every day, is the moment of Love,
Love's birth, Love's eye rising, Love being beheld.
All day, everyday, is the birth of the birth, is
God God God, Spirit, Allah, Adam, Isis, All.
All day, everday, You are the Infinite
in my finite bowl of cereal, and you spell out
the atoms which profoundly turn
the world, in which I live, and where I love and how I give
to that which births me
Now

from my Father and My Mother
I have turned
into the Two
and the One
and the Two

and as we come together
so we
sing out
as the One
and the Two
and how high are hearts go
when the world
can be birthed
from this every single Union
on the day
that Bethlehem
is still
in its Labor
of Love

I cry out for YOU
in Love
and I Love YOU
Your Beloved

Love Letter 46 The Star of David

Hola!
Chow!
Bella Mia!
Bello Mio!
My Beloved!
In this moment
I am counting down
'til I see you
and my heart is awake at these thoughts, these feelings,
counting in a cadence of Love!
I am wondering
how the spark
will take place
and how far and fast the Earth will move.
no matter, my dear...the heart is flammable! That is its beauty!
and the Movement of the Earth at the flicker of Love! well, that is splendor!
My arms around you, no matter the speed, we'll be moving too
into that rapture.
counting down, my love, counting down, to that surrender,
when my chaste lot ends
and all I am
empties out
into an unknown chalice
of what We are.
This is the Presence of religion
where cherubs balance on Cupid's wisdom
and we branch
a Partridge
in Perfection's
Tree

I Always Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 45 Come to the Cure, Love

You are the cure
for Everything

Remember that as you walk out your door, down the street, into your car, anywhere else you go, whoever and whatever you encounter today

Remember
YOU ARE THE CURE

you have the ease, the power, the energy, the ecstasy and rebirth
everything possible lives in your hands, your heart
everything you say has the power to heal
and change the world
to wake it up
all parts

your divine little package of you-ness
is so filled with the absolute of inspiration
that You Are the Cure
today and everyday
in every encounter
if you can just believe
what I know

and that is,
that You ARE
the Answer
to every question out there...
In your heart,
is the absolute Master
of the whole world

You Are The Cure

I Love You,
Your Beloved

Love Letter 44 I Love You

Thank you Lover
for loving me, when I could not love myself
for finding me, when I was adrift in a myriad of awkward poses, and letting me dry out on your shore

Thank you Lover
for forgiving me when I could not forgive myself
for seeing me as I am in my highest, even and especially when I am at my lowest

Thank you Lover
for being my lifeline, cheerleader and lover
for forgiving my imposition, inquisition and heretical behaviors, my contradictions and addictions
for holding me through it all, for looking me in the eye -- when I could not face myself

for letting me rest, and telling me to do so when I was so revved up I ran in circles, just to avoid what was, to escape and evaporate that temporary truth

Thank you Lover
for being the ladder
to help me up or down, over, and out
and the hands to catch me, caress me, or to help
to applaud me when I was too busy "trying"

and
Thank you
for not being afraid of my tears
angry, fearful or stricken with grief
for sitting with me
in the mystic muck
and having my back
when I was moving too far, too fast away from my center of Love

I Love You,
Your Beloved

Love Letter 43 valuable: important, worthwhile

I value you
not because of hundreds of thousands of reasons which are all true, but
because you're YOU

simply
without nostalgia
YOU are YOU

YOU ARE VALUABLE
BECAUSE YOU'RE YOU

and not because I say so, either

but because YOU ARE

Your very existence proves it
I am enamored by your existence BECAUSE you're YOU!
I'm lucky Because You're YOU
All the World is Lucky, even the template and the monarchs
the mistletoe and the cities of Atlantis
the miner's soul and the heights at Glaslough
Angels and their dinner mints
the Shroud of Jesus

we appear
in and out
your life
like a poem in motion
dreams
songs

everything happens, and yet, You Are
Existence
an everchanging snow
but perfect

The subtle reunion of all these things
and still
You Are

Because You Are
the subtle reunion of all these things

and we are love
lovers
beloveds
Because You ARE

I love you,
Your Beloved

Love Letter 42

My sweet Beloved, my perfumed swan, my magic empress, emperor, legion,
You are an admirable Goddess, God, Luminary of mankind
you scintillate the senses as well as the depths
moving creation into silhouette
with all of your beauty
You Shine
a candle lit a hundred times by its own fire
you exhume all the unlit fires until the whole Earth streams in floodlit wonder
Gentle as you are, your strength implores me
to do more with Love
to go more places
to give with more luxury, generous chases, chaste banquets of endless love
to get in nooks and crannies, craters, abysses, with More Love
you, you, you
a chrysalis headdress cocooning the moon
unleashing
the secret
we all deserve
Love Love Love
the very alphabet
based on
immortal ingenuity
to love
trust
connect
continue
love
the very pantheon
and bible
and humming of a lullaby
and silence from an awed womb
silver plumage
and oysters willing
to expose
the
art of love


Your Beloved

Love Letter 41 True Nature

Everybody knows by now, that we're in love.
It's so obvious
--- the glow
which comes from drinking of the Bliss
has God's ecstatic signature
they can't resist
the pull
of our ether
and want to touch us
as if
we're cotton candy
and they are new
to love's surprising enjoyment, amusement and sweetness
they want to dip
into
the sugar well
and make a fluffy torch
of mesmerizing connection
they want to walk hand in hand
with
what is
and be at One
so that
all comes to the center
easily
like a wheel
that's Universal
they see this Love
and know
somewhere
inside them
that
THIS
is always
OUR TRUE NATURE

I Love You,
Your Beloved

Love Letter 40 water into winter

impeccable
substantial
venerable
pucker

these worlds spin on the end of emptiness
aortas ordering the planets
leaves turning into skating rinks
december bends to winter
and water is still moving
in the Ocean
because of you

lovable
touchable
huggable
capable of happiness and good news

You remember
how to make a peace sign with your fingers
and say hello to strangers
and look at yourself in the mirror with awe
at how completely beautiful Great Spirit made you
and you remember
to forgive
any other thought
but Love

I Am Yours,
Devoted
Unswayable
at your mercy,
Your Beloved

Love Letter 39 a little or a lot

let me be exhausted
if that's what it takes to love you
to convince you
it's true
let me fall upon myself with every gesture I send to reach you
and my voice grow raw and raspy
because I will say every word
again
until you hear
and if you need
me calloused
and empty
having given all to you
I will be just as happy
as if
I slept
and you said
Thank You

I love you
Your Beloved

Love Letter 38 an ocean of Figs

an ocean of figs at your feet...
swept away
in love
I wash the water
with my heart
reaching open
a million temples surrender to your kiss
the stones take shape like pedestals
each step you take
an algebra for new beginnings
and I beg
to lay the blanket down
to bring you comfort
to carry tea across the sand
and watch you wish
on stars
which wish on
you
and in the morning
after I have kept my vigil
while
you walked the planes of dreamland
and uncovered sacred texts
we sit
in silence
like apples on the embers
of a phoenix

You are my Beloved,
Your Beloved

Love Letter 37 Speechless

Wow
forgive me for my loss of words...but...
WOW!

I thought I had you all figured out, but

WOWWWW!!!

You really OPENED MY HEART!

AGAIN!

You Really OPEN MY HEART

again and AGAIN.

Wow. I love when my heart is open.

Open for Beloved Business

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 36 Every Kind of Healing

Have you thought of me? Here? Wanting you to know without doubt or question or hesitation HOW MUCH YOU'RE LOVED?
Did you feel it today? REALLY FEEL with conviction that inimitable Love that rests on your shoulders and moves like a vine through all of your landscapes?
Are you SURE?
because I'm HERE
like a tidal wave, there are oceans attempting to catch you with their love
and if you are
alert
you will feel the opening of the world, the lifting of the veil,
the imminent undoing of loss
and
THERE
in the midst of every kind of healing
I will be
sharing your Joy!

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 35 What Potions!

Sweet, sweet, SWEET
dew drops clinging to the mystery they came from and then...
devoured!
Shared with the new day.
delivered!
and again!
they arise from the crepuscular prism of night
mini oasises left by the gypsies and faeries
for the travelers of life!

AWAKEN!

Aren't you SunShine?!
You have a melody.... have I heard it?
have you been moving to its orchestration like a lotus arising
from the unknown clutter of chaos
into such arriving,
that sweetness, the potent arousal of arriving, the immediate, primordial oasis
endures through all the questioning, turmoil, and toxic plumes?
Your sound, your sun, like an equator echoing
through a labyrinth,
waking open the gate for each new arrival of light
to be birthed. to be breathlessly and breathfully birthed.
each sound, sun, equator is a newly formed fountain
of dawning dew for the household of Earth to imbibe.
Your very existence quenches the Earth.

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 34 Wonder

In your wild imagination, where water lillies spawn a hurricane of simple bubble baths in weathervanes on front lawns where sins are forgiven like clouds moving in the sky and I wait for you on the silent bird whistling in innuendo as you sneak down the fire escape to your inner world where fish have wings and I can become the sound of your fins lifting into heaven's whirling white body where the bay of light brings two gongs together in a porpoise's water play and finite portals become infinity's belly and you draw stars on me that make me yours forever...

Yes, I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 33 a puff of smoke

Blue Moon?
Why aren't you counting Angel Fish?
A million things to say thank you to, always, there is.
And you.
Thank you to you. To your building of peace on Earth. and all the cease fires you give, even when you're itching to fume.
Your beautiful smoulder.
Your organic surrender.
The way you stomp your feet and insist on Love!
Your bright unmanageable impractical perfection rains down on me and I purr!
I have thought of you
as trains go by, clouds become belugas and the small palm of the infants hand grows to adulthood.
I have brought you with me
on my way here
and without you
I would be only one end of a tool
nothing to hold it in place
nothing to center it
turn it
make the connection
but your guidance
and wisdom
completes my wakefulness
your light
makes me available
your saucy instigation is the cracking of the code

I love you
your raw beauty
your inner aquarium --- is remarkable
I am counting
gift after gift
blessing and blessing
sometimes so many
like a school of fish
I can only watch in awe
and reel with delight

what? I can't be corny?
sure I can.
True Love can withstand corniness.

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 32 And this is how I Feel

gift after gift is gushing at me!
You REALLY PILE IT ON, don't you?!
One thing after another adorns me with your love. Simplicity in complexity... completion in beginning... kindness in confusion...stillness in motion
You are a pulsing hum of nectar thrilling each emotion with calm ecstatic love.
You fill each pore with a silence so delectable, I am empty before I open, and full with each inhalation. My nervous system steadily remembers how to Open To Love.
My spine relaxes, expands, uses its fluid to balance my body mind and soul.
I become the tranquil inner eye, all seeing and calm.
Each reflection, like liquid God.
I am so lucky!
Your gifts are so many, so helpful, usefull, successful, fulfilling, abundant, beneficial, I am blissfully blown over by your Existence!
I am staring always into the Eye of the Beholder and Beloved!
I am always enshrined in your plentiful presents and Presence!
I AM IN LOVE!

I love you
Your Beloved

Love Letter 31 Mass Consciousness

Belovedddd!

Your heroic efforts are noticed, commended, complimented, APPLAUDED!
Let me say OUTLOUD how specifically crucial you are to this Life and all that's in it! How each kind word, act, attempt, sends a rush of love through mass consciousness!
ARE YOU BREATHING?!!
HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW I COUNT ON YOU TO FEEL LOVED?
TO FEEL MY LOVE?
I wonder, "am I doing my job? am I loving enough? am I showing my love? Is my love benefiting the world in some way? am I living my mission?"
I need to love!
You are helping me, by being available to receive my love.
You are benefiting me, being kind to me, sending a rush of love through mass consciousness just by accepting my love right now!

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 30 YOU

From Before Your Birth
You were the Secret
the Ancients
had been talking about
You, a tiny star, with cosmic impact
and NOW
with each breath
you
enlighten my world
like magic algebra
where infinity is squared
and my eyes are open
ever wider
with each equation

always some beautiful unknown
always the mystery
affixing me
to Love the next new Blessing

which unravels
from your Being
like a new star

to be talked about
by future
Elders
around a Universal Fire.

You are
why I'm here

and
I LOVE YOU

Your Beloved

Love Letter 29 Infinite Us

If this world is infinite, then so are you
and there is nothing stopping us
from being together
and embodying
All Light
and there is nothing stopping us
from Liberation
and Love
and Ecstasy and Bliss
and God God God
You You You
Me Me Me
Us Us US
and Silence
and the merging of the infinite
into one Kiss
where all the worlds is perched
In Love

I love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 28 More Where That Came From

In my sleep... I saw you
opening your heart
so I could see it in its perfection
and I was AWED.
So much so, that I woke up, and there you were, arms outstretched, Light ascending and descending in all directions, your heart a rapid echo of God's Love.
I could not turn my head or close my eyes, nor did I want to.
I was so taken in
that the only thing I could do, was ... GO
into that fine light
with total ecstasy
and I did not turn around, or back, and never will
Because
There's More Where That Came From
More Love
More Holiness
More Wholeness
More Openness
More Ecstasy
More You

and that magnet of attraction
is not law,
but God

I love you
Your Beloved

Love Letter 27 Because of You

Because of YOU
I am staring at my wall right now
inflicted with designs of your light
like decor
moving through my tunnel
into
DAYLIGHT

Because of YOU
I wanted to learn to write
so words
might find a way
to levitate the page
and make it in
that envelope
you hold your cards in
playing one by one
until the Ace
sits in your hand
like a deuce.

Because of YOU
I wanted to see your hand
so I could watch
that 2 become the Whole World, just by being revealed

Your beauty to be vulnerable
Your courage
to let go of all the cards
and just
BE in the middle
of nowhere with me
Now Here

Because of YOU
I wanted to be vulnerable
and open
and unfolded
like a napkin from a wedding
that will enjoy many layers and lifetimes of cake

Because of YOU
even chocolate
is a mirage in your presence

and I throw all my money
into
confetti
which will keep being found
in your precious adventure
like tulips
growing wildly open, even in the frost

and Because of YOU
I have come to know
my own shame, and shape it into a Shem
"giving back the life [promise of life] to the god [man].

give the god back his soul' and reassert his earthly shape" {Ekowa}
and in so doing
Because of YOU
I have given my life back to God -- to the Light


Because of YOU
I allow God to shape me
beyond myself
in a way that words
cannot caress

Because of YOU
I use my words
but
it is also Because of YOU
I know
that words are not the WORD

and only Light can show what Light Is
and only Love can show what Love Is

and I know
Because of YOU
there is LOVE
and
there is LIGHT

and I am Graced
to have "because ofs"
Because of YOU

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 26 It Just Is

I do not doubt you. As I know, you are made of Love...It is that simple.
There are no commitments.
No papers to sign
It just Is.
YOU ARE LOVE
Nothing can stop it
Nothing can define it
It just Is.

WOW
What do you think of that?

How do you Feel?

You just Are Love
and that's it.

no dotted line,
nothing to sell.
Just the automatic happenstance of THAT GREAT THING!

YOU ARE LOVE

WOW.
I am overcome.
in this moment, all my sheepishness
and isolation
everything that moves me out
has just moved me in

your direction.

YOU ARE LOVE!... how could I doubt you?
Love is the cure for doubt
and YOU ARE LOVE
and I LOVE YOU
therefore

When we are in Love
We cannot be wrong
We cannot be separated
We cannot be challenged by doubt

Because Love IS SO OVERWHELMING
that all else
disintegrates

I can rest in this.

AND SO CAN YOU.

I Love YOU
Your Beloved

Love Letter 25 You, You, and Only You

My Beloved Angelic Being of Light who radiates through all doors real and unreal,
I am broken by this thought that you cannot see how much I love you daily, in all you do. My biggest fear is that we never meet in mutual "yes" knowing that "yes" is okay.

I want you to love me. I know. Yet, there it is. Maybe all this time you thought I only wanted to give you love. And here it is, another truth. added to the others. If I led you to believe that love was not everything. Then let me clear that understanding.

I want love. and. I want you to love me.
Why?
Because Love is constant. instant. overflowing. Love is essential, It is everything and It is the only thing.
When Love flow is mutual, the River widens, and nourishes more Beings.
Love is Life and I want to be ALIVE TOGETHER...

All Beings Benefiting from the Flow

Each River Widening, Every River Entering the Ocean

I AM that Ocean that you enter

and You Are Mine

Together, we let go of who does what, and only empty and fill...ebb and flow

just a small child carrying rocks to the water -- the patient life of sand

We Are in each other's Ocean

no matter where else we are

We Are in each other's Ocean



I am not afraid of you

because I know Joy

that is boundless

and that Joy

is accessible

when I say YES to the Ocean I am in.



I Say YES to YOU, Beloved.



I Love You

Your Beloved

Love Letter 24 I Am Listening

It has been almost of month since I have been letting you know How MUCH I LOVE YOU via this particular compass.
And I wanted, more than anything, to be reaching YOU,
into those places that need Love, Understanding, Nurturance the most.
I am putting this offer to you
because I Want To Please You, To See You as You Are, To Hear You Clearly.
If there are any particular words, ways, ideas, areas, that need Love and Attention, I would like to address them in these Love Letters to You.
They Are For You
Therefore, You Know Best, What you need to hear and receive.
I will take loving care of your suggestions and incorporate them harmoniously as they are guided into the Flow of these offerings.

You can always contact me.
I AM AVAILABLE

I Love You
Your Beloved

Love Letter 23 Melting Snow Love Poem

four feet of snow
one inch thick
the rain
like a parallel

you center
on a wide margin
where
only emptiness
can enter

but
I Am Here

the walk was long
not much encouragement
you worked the loom
like a lithograph

and then you turned

I Am Here

the words
fold
the sun cannot melt all the snow this instant
so
it
slowly
melts

but
I Am still Here

you had to find your home again
I understand.

I Am Here

You had to find who you are
I know

I Am Here

you had to get lost first.
yes
and makes some changes
okay
and

I Am Here

We can watch the snow melt together.

I love you
Your Beloved