Love Letter 226 Arrival

I wanted to be with you

so much packing, just to leave

and now I'm naked

still imagining clothes

but

I will get over

clothing

I will get over needing something to read

pages to write in

food

I will soon stop needing to make a decision

or try

to believe

this is true

if you keep coming like this to me

I will have no where

to go

because

all my backpacks

are filled with

maps

to follow the One/You

meditation tapes, yoga mats

handfuls of crystals

algae, henna

a book of prayers

even my toothpaste

is a foolish thing to carry

and shoes.... forgive the shoes

I was just hoping

to prepare a bath for you

and await your knock

but dear

I have brought all that nostalgia

to a blind date

and you were already here

writing your poems on the sheets I would sleep in

you were here

when I got here

you were always here

your patience, like a chamber of elevated laughter applauding my slow waltz

all I have wanted

was waiting

while I made the decision

to come

all those years, trying to decide

how

to go about

saying yes

I never knew

you would be so available

that's why, now

I still practice

packing

and leaving

I just can't believe

One Yes

brought You.

I Love You

Your Beloved